Okay. This post, i waaaay overdue.
it's actually about my PW group that i so wanted to post about and i actually intended to do so after Project Work Oral Presentation which is effectively from tmr, 20 days ago...Now that's what you call INefficient...

Anyway... Thanks to PJ021 , with Ashley, Azri ,Melody and Redzuan , i'd never have been able to get any work done... seriously... you guys were wonderful to work with... i've been telling people who talk to me about Project Work about how WONDERFUL you people have been. You've made project work a whole lot easier to deal with..!!!

Ashley - you started off really shy and quiet.. i swear at the first few meetings.. i was completely worried about how I could possibly get you to ever speak up, much less voice out your views in the group.. I was worried that you'd have been overpowered by the noiser few in the group... [mainly the noiser few refering to ME. eh... but it's not my fault..!! i'm leader...!! If i don't speak, who else will...!?] Well... It's good to see how you've evolved from this quiet person to this... crazy FAN stealing monster... haha... someone as crazy as me and even has this unique fettish for erm.FANS. =) i wonder why.... loved ever single bit of working with you...especially knowing that i could count on you to work with melody to produce ridiculously tight scheduled powerpoint slides for the random courses we attended...

Melody - my wonderful and almost pitiful secretary.. sometimes i pity you having to be my secretary cause i'm really forgetful and that puts even greater pressure on you to have to jot down everything i say before it evaporates... =) Worse still... given our crappiness during meetings... you usually have to seive through a hundred sentences of nonsense to get to the one and only enlightening line...Bravo on that sweetie...It's also amazing how you have this ability to seive out all the newspaper art related articles... it's just.. amazing. [It's like... you suddenly produced 6 articles at one meeting and i was, stunned, dumbfounded. whatever you call it. =) ]Moreover, you together with Azri provided me with the silent support that i constantly relied on throughout the year... thanks..!! =)

Azri -  you were supposed to be my secretary but..... i think i forgot i even appointed you secretary.. Lol. Oops. Anyway... you've proven your greatest potential at helping us rush out the written report and the methodology ...and many other type written stuff... i remember how i made you stay up way past midnight just so that i could have some help with vetting my work... and you gladly helped me out with checking though my stuff as well.... You provided alot of up to date information and especially when it came to a few nights before our Oral Presentation.. you even took the trouble to get everything all edited and updated so that we could prove how consistent we are in our research...I also believe that you were one of the few really hardworking ones who actually put in effort to rehearse your script about 50 times... and even took time to memorise it way before i requested it.. Thanks for being so willing to go the extra mile cause our group definitely wouldn't be up to that standard without your consistent nagging and meticulous checking... Oh yes... and Thanks for also reminding me to say alot of stuff... cause i'm so used to saying alot of stuff.. that i simply forget everything the next day.. especially if i don't jot it down.. so.. basically...thanks for being my human PDA !! =) haha. [p.s watch less DOA ads, it's bad for you.. Lols.]

Redzuan - as for you... i'm still waiting for my french fries...!! aiyoh... you arh.... you're almost as blur as me... but probably more efficient and...hardworking.. seriously... although you're very much the joker...it's brilliant how you can contribute so much ideas to the group during meetings ... Oh ya... and... i know sometimes.. i'm kinda harsh on you.. ? But it's really cause i know you can do well.. and i really want you to exercise your full potential... =) haha... i'm so worried that you'd get distracted during meetings...!! aiyoh.. But seriously... You've shown yourself to be a great team player especially during the filming of the short clip... You've been a wonderful SON.. and..even though.. i'm a lousy mother when it comes to dress-up and even if you're alot taller than me... haha..i'm sure we all had a great time... I'm really sorry to have made you wait almost 2 hrs just to film that 30 sec clip ..especially since it was my fault that the programme couldn't register that particular clip.. so thanks for your patience...

All In all.... I'm just glad that our group got the best blend of people.. We worked hard, we played hard. I'm sure. [ *cough* swensens *cough*].. well... I just hope that we'll still keep in touch after all this.. and maybe go for another lunch or so...!! Good Luck and God Bless my wonderful PW mates. I really love you peeps to bits..!! =)

                                                                         lotsa love, 
                                                                                          your adoring group leader..
                                                                                                                                       - sArAh -

[P.S Ash.. I'll try and remember your fan when i go to Malacca this holiday.. =) Azri.. remind me. =)]

Just a side note, I love the new pair of earrings that HE just  bought for me today [271106].. Thanks sweetie...

Okay. i'm sick again.Flu,cough,cold... * whines.. whilst nursing a papercut..* 
like..  "Hey..! what's new right.. ?"

Seriously..today we had our T1 class outing at East Coast Park - Jerome, Sidney , Nazrul, Kenneth , Lewei, Boon Piao, Jason, Patrick, Ma Yin, Yi Yong, Hui Xian, Jellyn, Shin Yen , Pingasari , Eun Kyung , and my special HIM was there. Lol.

We were supposed to meet at 9 am ,then when i reached there at 9 sharp , there was no one in sight..!!! then later, i ran into Kenneth , then Nazrul and Jason. Le Wei, Yi Yong and Jerome came later...leaving me to realise that i would be the only girl to meet them there at 9 am. We left CCK at 9.45 and couldn't even decide which train line to take to meet Hui Xian at City Hall interchange. They agreed to follow my directions to East Coast Park... and... AGAIN ,  I got lost in Suntec City.    [Wah liao... they really should put up clearer signs to the overhead bridge lor...!!!]   Anyway... we were supposed to get down to East Coast Park before Mr Loh did cause we wanted to surprise him.... cause we told him that we were reaching SOON , when we were in fact like... 1 hr away. Oh well. the surprise was on us, he didn't turn up eventually.

Oh ya... and guess what..! Birthday Boy Jia Hao, didn't turn up. Lol. so i brought his present all the way down to ECP for nothing... tsk tsk. Jia Hao, If you're reading this... you're so dead if you don't use your present okay...!!! Effort points for carrying it around with me even if it's not your favourite colour... Oh well... Happy Birthday to the birthday boy once again... !!! *cheers*

Hmm.. where was I.. ? ya... so the guys went there and did what they did best....!!! They played SOCCER...!!!  =) whilst me and Hui Xian slacked until Ping joined us and we started singing... I called HIM and asked him if he wanted to join us.. and so HE came down.. haha...

He ended up blading and helping me buy water... as for Patrick... This blurblock as usual... can memorise textbooks and whatever notes... but doesn't know how to take a bus from Gleneagles Hospital to East Coast Park. Ask him to take until Doby Ghaut Mrt station.. and
                                Mr Blur King asked me... "how do i know where's that.. ?"
                                 So i said... "look out for plaza sing..!! "
                                                     Silence.   
I swear he was going to ask me what that was... =) haha....     damn funny.... i actually even asked him to get me marshmallows and a bottle of water... but considering he'd get lost... i told him to scrap it. and get it for me from ECP. Lols.   Anyway. Thanks Patrick... i swear you're gonna kill me for calling you blur block or blur king... Lols...but i still think it stands.. haha. [you can't kill me anyway.. i know too much... and besides.. you made me a promise.. Lols.]

Oh well.. after hanging at East Coast Park... we went to Plaza Sing for dinner at the foodcourt.... the bus jornery there was HILARIOUS. especially poor Le wei who ws constantly getting teased about Shin Yen and Nazrul was relentlessly jacking him about his MSN nick. Poor Guy. damn funny though...especially the part about... "Push[ing] all the way..." and the "banana split..."  ... that seriously made us laugh till we all had stomach cramps...

We also called Jia Hao on Patrick's phone to sing him a birthday song on the bus..omg. we sure caught the attention of the entire bus... it was... wacky.

HE later walked me back to the lift and left... then... my doorbell rang... because i left a bottle with him...my memory is getting from bad to worse... haha...!! oh well.... so much for my crazy day...

Got another long day ahead... will be back soon.. hopefully to fill you in on my attachments at the Legal Aid Bereau.=) cheers ppl.

                                                                      - sArAh - mixed up feelings of happy and sad.simple as that.

Hmm... I think i really really really haven't blogged in ages... I'm terribly sorry..

Bet all the frequent blog surfers must be wondering... what's up with this blog....
i must admit that after the i told HIM incident.. i really felt that dumping this blog for good.. but.. i straightened out my thinking.... concentrated on promos... and got on with life..

Basically.... i did okay for Promos... i mean... i didn't get an A or anything... but i guess and averages of Bs and Cs and one D wasn't too bad after all... i could come to terms with that... considering.. i didn't really study much... [Oops... did i really say that.. ??  i'm sorry... XD ]  tsk tsk. i carefully bet that if any teachers are reading this... i'm gonna get nagged at next year. To study harder. That is. =)

Well... quick updates on my life...I've came back from 2 great holidays... =)
One was a cruise.... and the other was a trip to Bali.  - which one was more fun.. ? I'd safely say. The Cruise... that would also be largely due to the fact that you get to travel in style.
Oh. And not to forget.. It's also because i bought Sherbet - this pink teddy bear.. the brand.TY.. ?? Oh nevermind.. Only the stuffed toy crazy nuts like me would know. =) We had lotsa food to eat on the cruise... i smuggled myself into a casino... hmm.. got chased out though...other than that... it was basically just living the life of the "rich" .  Hah. =)   seriously... it was plain fun. cause everywhere was Air cond. XD [Ooh. you know how it is with Little Miss Polar Bear.] Except when we went snorkelling.. with Black Tip Sharks. =) cool mann. =) my dad saw a Morray Eel though. damn. i missed it.=)

Bali on the other hand was ... horrendous. i went there with a food poisoning to start with...didn't get to do much shopping... and..was kinda sick throughout.. when you're sick.. it's hard to enjoy yourself... especially when the food and entertainment sucks. the lodging was something to talk about though... The scenery was something else to marvel at.. and their way of life... absolutely refreshing.. the weather there was also crappy... it was worse than in Singapore.. but surprisingly... at the time we went... There was NO HAZE at all. =)

Other than my holidays...
another fairly interesting thing that's happened to me so far.. would be my boyfriend. =) heh.
Well... i won't leave names on the blog cause i don't need to answer more than i can handle.. but all those who know the two of us.. will probably know by now. =)
Funny how my entire family knows already... and it's scary how my grandma was planning my future. in advance. My marriage, my kids.. my future. -.- my sister wants to be my bridesmaid.     sheesh.
I'm not gonna get married anytime soon. Lol. Not in the Next 10 years at least. so too. bad. =) haha

Well... He's a really nice guy.  - very sweet, patient and considerate... To be honest.. i feel really bad making him wait outside my house for me today... he waited for a good one and a half hours... Sorry sweetie. =) Hmm.. my mum thinks we're like glue and gum or something.. so she plans ahead for seeing him everyday... haha. she even predicted that he'd see me down to Victoria Concert Hall tomorrow just so he can have dinner with me... guess what.. ?  She's right.  Lol.  For the record... ? He also claims he's innocent... but... hmm.. that's not something i'm really sure of... [tsk tsk.]  As I'm typing this... the roses he gave me are still sitting in my fridge.. haha... just so you know... i prefer pink lilies better though. =)  Haha.. but i guess i'll settle for roses.. just because it came from him. XD   more about him some other time.

My dad just got back from India and he isn't done with complaining about the food there... and my sister's now at some camp... it seems we're not gonna have a family dinner anytime soon... oh well...

i've got a number of events lined up for me til the end of this month.. looks like i'm gonna be really busy...

15th Nov - Play at Victoria Concert Hall - 7.45 pm + council chalet
16th Nov -  Metro -SiF - Paragon  - 3pm to 8 pm  + dinner with Him and Mummy. + council chalet
17th Nov - Council chalet - Downtown East  [Don't think i can make it though...]
18th Nov -
19th Nov -
20th Nov -
21st Nov - Literature Tour  - School  - 8 am  - 2pm  [yikes...!! ]
22nd Nov - Lee Kah Shing's Birthday
23rd Nov -
24th Nov -
25th Nov - 4T1 Class Outing - East Coast Park - 10am + Chan Jia Hao's Birthday. + Science center duty..
26th Nov - Sherbet's Birthday
27th Nov - Work Shadowing -Legal Aid Bureau - 8 am - 5pm
28th Nov - Work Shadowing - Legal Aid Bureau - 8am - 5pm
29th Nov - Work shadowing - Legal Aid Bureau - 8am - 5pm
30th Nov - Grad Nite duty  - Swissotel

For now.. that's about all i can think of... at the moment.. i guess.. the empty slots are the only days i have left for myself.. =) haha... too bad la.... that's my sadddd life. =) haha. Or Not So SAD life =)
Just a short note to some close friends..Patrick and Azri... cheer up guys.. =) Really hope that my friends around me don't forget that they can always approach me if they need a ear.. XD  lotsa love to go around. yepps...
Oh well.. It's late.. more on my life.. another time. =D cheers readers. =)

                                                      - sArAh - found a piece of you..in my heart.
                                                                                            i wonder how it got there..
                                                                                                        but for now.. that's where it's gonna stay.=)
                                                                                                                                                                   141106.

i finally found just enough courage to tell him.
but just as soon as i did, i felt better. But part of me is curious to know if i made a big mistake.

i feel so stupid. lol. for calling him stupid. =) but... in any case. the entire male race is not going to stop being condemned just because he knows.

so. now that he knows, i feel better and i'm going to move on to another chapter in my life. 

That chapter would be my promos. gosh.i better start studying.hard. pronto.

                  - sArAh -  learning to let go. better to have loved and lost than not having loved at all.

I signed out of school today -  to be exact, i was on mc - after my econs test.

Feeling very sick and breathless, i just lay in bed and did some thinking.
Thinking of him to be specific. Thinking of school work,council.. and promos.
Most of all, thinking of him.

I asked myself, why the sudden drift.. things were working out fine between the two of us.. and i was pretty sure awhile back that he was quite a nice guy. I'm not sure if it was something I said, or did. But nonetheless, whatever has been said, has been said... i'm not going to pretend to something i'm not... but i really really couldn't get the sight of him smiling out of my head.    [Maybe that's what's causing the migraine. Joking. XD]  But seriously, i miss the attention and the affection shown, be it as a friend or not. My long breaks are made longer at the realisation that this month's phone bill would exceed, not because he messaged me. But because he didn't. So i turned away from using my phone - hence my inefficiency in dealing with any messages. - I buried my handphone under the pillow so that i would forget about it. [i guess that's how i was dealing with it.]

But it bites me to know. that he simply, just, doesn't. care. And pride, doesn't want me to approach him either. But i think it's not a big deal  - Yet.

My phone bill is grossly going to exceed because of 5 relays a day, to two different people. Oh my gosh.

But i think the point here is that i haven't gotten over him, i miss him, i miss talking to him and i miss laughing with him. Basically i miss him. badly. - This special dream, would be to have him hold me. And to Cherish me. that would suffice. This person once called me an angel. That, meant more than anything else could in the world to me.

                          - sArAh - Dreams - i was sick, but continued smiling in my dreams, because you were in it.