I really owe my classmates...Melody, Kah Shing, Azri, Candy, Jamie, Jieying, Meizhen, Noreen, Joyee ... a great apology and thank you !!! Cause i've been missing class and i know.. one way or another our group work's been affected... so once again.. i'm really sorry.

I've been down with this ridiculously bad case of gastric.. and i've seen 3 doctors up to date about it...my general practicioner told me to get some stupid hospital referral letter so that they knew about my case prior to hospital admission. So the 3rd time when i went to the polyclinic to get the letter.. the doctor there said i didn't need it.  I thought so... so anyway.. it was a great deal of relief seeing that i didn't need to be admitted...so here i am... resting at home.. and having porridge again.
Oh yes. Porridge. I've been having that on and off for about a week now... lets see.... fish porridge(2times), pork porridge, chicken porridge(4times) otherwise... it's Tau huey (almost everyday...) -.- oh gosh.. i feel like a baby.

i guess everytime something likethat happens... you get to learn who your true friends really are. =) Thank god for them, and God bless them.

This January has been a depressing month for me...

I mean...i think i'm fairly happy go lucky...going to school feeling good cause i like my class.. i think that really helps alot.. keeps you looking forward to school.. but i feel that there have been some people who have been really getting on my nerves.
Sitting on the side panel and merely judging... i've been watching a whole lot of bitching and backbiting going on. What happened to the love then.. ?
I won't say i'm a pro at being grateful to people.. but at least i don't snap at the people around them just because i'm mad at them over one incident. C'mon,live and let live. There's been this great shuffle in cliques and i guess some people really aren't happy with it. I mean.. someone's bound to get hurt along the way... maybe we shouldn't add insult to injury. It's kinda funny how in good times, you see everyone huddled together laughing... but in bad times... you see two or three people here and there... and you simply carry on with life.being apathetic isn't going to help matters. sheesh.Try thinking and acting like grown ups will you.. ? Another point i noted... was how some people forget others in the heat of the moment and trample all over their egos...

Look. There are times when i feel like trash; i wake up and i cry and cry; i cry myself to sleep, i cut myself and then i go to school looking ok.You may say, that's delusional.But I say, that's braver than going to school and acting like an idiot.

Is it really necessary to remain enemies for life over one incident.. ? Was there nothing that the person did in the past that could have been said to redeem himself/herself..? Think about it. JC lasts for 2 years at best.Do you want to leave school with more friends, or more enemies..?

Omg. bottled feelings feel better after being let out.

Anyway... my special HIM gave me a ring for my b'day present. It's really pretty and sweet.. He's the kind that doesn't mind going shopping with me and my mum.. so he ends up being abused and bullied into carrying all the stuff. He's been looking after me the past week or so cause i'm been so down and out that he's the on making sure i remember to eat my medicine.. he forgot to remind me last night and i forgot to take it. duh. He's the one making sure i've had my dinner. If not he'd buy dinner back for me... and he's even had to put up with my nonsense...  i think the medicine made me kinda depressed for awhile.. so i just kept crying and didn't want anything.. i cried for about 5 hours.. and to think he still put up with that. That's a whole lot of patience we're talking about,,,anyway. i simply adore him. Lol.

haha.I received a good deal of money cause relatives didn't know what to buy me for my birthday. I guess it's better that way.. cause i haven't even spent 1/4 of it... Lol. I went shopping for ALL the stuff i wanted and it turns out that my friends don't know what to get for me anymore.

Sk and Ili  got me a pair of pretty slippers...
Jian Qiang and Kun Tat got me an anklet from Moshi Moshi...
Azri got me a shoebag...
I got myself Maybelline Mascara...
My mummy signed me up for facial on the 27th...
Thanks !!!

Oooohhh.. i can't wait... to get well first... then i can celebrate my 18th birthday looking good. =) Too bad daddy is working in M'sia and can't make it back to celebrate it with me...

I think this year's little wishlist would be:
1. to do well for A's
2. spend more time with family
3. hangout with BPian buddies
4. hangout with class people
5. save up an entire Voda Voda [1.5L ] water bottle with coins
6. Spend more time with HIM
and...
7. maybe reveal HIS name at the end of A's. =P

Wish me luck..!!As to whether or not i manage to conquer my wishlist... life goes on.[As Quoted by Gerald Chew...06A02.] =)Love my family,love my dog, love my class, love my friends, love the school, love the council.Love everything.Oooh. AND. Love HIM too. hehs. All the best for common test J2s...!!!

          To all my closeest buddies... ...
                                                         When i was happy, you were there. 
                                                         When i was sad, you were still there. 
                                                         When i closed my eyes, you were there.
                                                         When i woke up, you were still there.
                                                         You were there when i needed you most.
                                                         Please let me be there for you now.

               My favourite line of the day:"Boyfriend, do you love me...?" - sArAh - 
                                                     you know what..? i Love you too.  on my 18th birthday,=)